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January 11, 2001

I was thinking about the pros and cons of someone [BJ].
- made me feel beautiful
- I was most important
- felt safe
- tried to make me happy
- was innocently romantic

- druggie dad
- doesn't love Jesus
- not musical

I know the thing that takes the cake is not loving Jesus. But even though I'm content at this moment I can't help but wonder...bad I know.
I'd never do anything to jeopardize my marriage. I wonder though what I could've done to make things better. Either with him or A. Maybe I'm just being dramatic.